I wish you could see what happened to me
They are things often not taught to a psychology student or MFT
My mother became a drug addict when I was three
And my father only did things for a fee
My mother wasnât born this way
She used to sing and dance all day
Somewhere though, she fell into a hole
I think on that day she lost her soul
I really wanted a mom and still do
Even better, if I could, Iâd take two
I want one of those that plays with me like Ms. Honey
Who dances, laughs, and thinks that I am funny
Iâd buy one if I couldâa mother Iâd call mommy
Iâd live with her in New York City and eat pizza or pastrami
We would dance, play sports, and talk about my dreams
Weâd be close and make the best mother-daughter pair of all the teams
Things werenât good when I was a kid
I donât remember much of what I did
I was scared often of what dad would do to us
That Iâd hide in my room when heâd start to cuss
I learned how not to ask him for much
And to run when I heard his fist make a bang and such
I left one night at twenty-one
That was the night I ran away and said that I am done
I donât know what itâs like to be cherished by a mom or dad
I donât know it much at all, but it sounds quite rad
I wish mental health professionals knew what to do with adults like me
But Iâve never much felt like any of them could really see
They gave me some label called âBPDâ
And instead, they said that the problem is me
I donât understand this because all I do is cry
They look at me though like what I say is a lie
I finally got a new therapist who says she believes me
She sits presently and never uses the term, âBPDâ
She smiles at me with warm brown eyes
And when I talk about what a therapist did to me, she sighs
Sheâs a feminist just like me
I think itâs why she finally can see
Itâs because of her that I am unthawing and still here
And that I recently stopped walking around with so much sadness and fear
All I needed was someone to say what happened to me wasnât okay
Just by my therapist doing this, I have started to find my way
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